Category Archives: Schizophrenia

Adolf Wölfli on World Mental Health Day

It’s World Mental Health Day, a day celebrated to raise awareness to end the stigma of mental health disorders and difficulties. On a day like today, I don’t want to spaff on about campaigns and statistics or what WMHD means to me. I’m going to use it as a means to tag this post, so people can find this blog, and find all the wonderful art in its pages, created by people who all use mental health services. I’m also a mental health service user, and an artist, but I get plenty of exposure for my art. Instead I want to talk about art and artists I like, in particular, Adolf Wölfi.

I love outsider art. It’s my favourite thing, along with folk art. Adolf Wölfli was an outsider artist associated with the Art Brut movement. He came from Bern, Switzerland. He was treated badly in his very young years, being both physically and sexually abused. He was an orphan and he got pushed from one foster home to another. Not an easy life, and it had hardly even started.


Wölfli didn’t start to draw until his admission to the Waldau Clinic, Bern, in 1895. He had been a farm labourer, and was briefly in the army, before his admission TO Waldau, however he had also been convicted of attempted child molestation and also spent some time serving a prison sentence. After his release he was picked up again for a similar offence. It was at this point he was admitted to the asylum where he would spend the rest of his adult life.

This is when he began to draw. This is when Adolf Wölfli came to life. I want to focus on his art, not his admission to Waldau, or his jail time. If you want to read more about that, check out his Wiki page, and, if you can get your hands on a copy, the book published by one of the doctors at Waldau, ‘Ein Geisteskranker als Künstler (A Psychiatric Patient as Artist)’.

Wölfli produced a massive body of work over the course of his life in residence at the asylum. Here is some of that work, and I encourage you to buy this:

Better, Drawn.

A good friend in mental health sent me a link to a website called Better, Drawn. It’s a fantastic site, full of high quality submissions. Basically Better, Drawn is a website for “comics drawn by people with experience of living with long-term mental and physical illnesses.” Below is their explanation of who and what they are, and also a link to their submissions guide in their FAQ.

“Better, drawn is a place for people to share stories about long-term mental and physical illnesses, told in the form of short comics. The site is a way for people to write and draw about their experiences that might otherwise be difficult to talk about openly. In fact, we think that sometimes things can be said better when they’re drawn.

Submissions are open to anyone with experience of long-term mental or physical illness to share – whether or not you see yourself as a comic artist. So, if you have experience with these kinds of health issues, or if you are close to someone who does, then you might like to consider submitting a comic for the site. You can visit our FAQ to find out more about how to send us your work.”

Martin Ramirez.

“Martín Ramírez (1895–1963) created nearly 300 drawings of remarkable visual clarity and expressive power within the confines of DeWitt State Hospital in northern California, where he resided the last 15 years of his life. Ramírez has been codified primarily as a “schizophrenic artist”; this project goes beyond the boundaries of Ramirez’s diagnosis of mental illness and considers the artistic quality and merit of his artwork. In this way, Ramirez’s works are understood—and appreciated—for the complex, multilayered drawings that they are. “Martin Ramirez,” the first major retrospective of the self-taught master in more than 20 years, features approximately 97 works on paper and is accompanied by a full-color catalog.”
-Brooke Davis Anderson, curator of the 2007 exhibition ‘Martin Ramirez’ at the American Folk Art Museum

For more information on the exhibition and Ramirez’s work please visit the American Folk Art Museum.

SMHAFF Workshop, Edinburgh.

It’s a relief it’s over. Only because I thought I would be rubbish at conducting the workshop. But as it turns out it went really blooming well.

On Saturday 8th October I ran a workshop as part of the Scottish Mental Health Art and Film Festival in Edinburgh. The workshop was predominantly for mental health service users, however anyone was invited to take part. After a brief (and very nervous) ramble about who I am and what I do, I led the class in an illustration workshop. And boy, did they work hard. Three solid hours of drawing!

The idea behind the workshop is to illustrate a day in the life of a mental health service user. It doesn’t have to be a generic day, and it doesn’t have to involve waking up and getting dressed…it doesn’t have to be literal. I wanted it to be a memory, or a feeling, it could be an abstract piece of work that does not stick to the lines of the comic strip. It can be colours or words or shapes. Or it can just be a stickman and it can just be a boring day. It’s about what you feel, how you feel being a mental health service user. And a person.

I took a whole load of materials up from London (in the heaviest bag known to man) so everyone could have a go using different pens, inks and paints. As well as a massive stash of pencil crayons and brush pens the artists got to try out dip pens, acrylic inks, marker pens, charcoal and pastel crayons as well as using mixed media such as collage.

Ultimately I would like to publish a graphic novel of collected strips from mental health service users. If this is something you would like to be involved in, please get in touch.

Some photos of what we completed at the workshop follow. If you would like to see all the photos from the day, including some of the exhibitions installed at the same venue, please click here and scroll through pictures to the right.

Mmmeta updated!

It’s been a while, apologies dear readers. Lots of changes in my life.

I’d like to pop back in to your lives with news of an update over at Mmmeta.com. So, let’s go!

For those who don’t know, Mmmeta is a “community of creative people who have been affected by mental illness.” It is “a place to share with likeminded people, support each other and express ideas and emotions in creative ways.”

You must go and check the website out. It has a strong community of members (including me!) who regularly post their work and interact with each other, as well as regular news and information in the form of blog posts and events. It’s a great inspiration to me and something I would like this blog (especially the forum part) to eventually become.

Below is a recent (rather long but interesting) interview with Mmmmeta founder, Dave Smurthwaite (who is also a part of Fringe Arts Bath), with a particular focus on Eating Disorders and online support.

Please have a read…and bear in mind the interview is unedited so grammar might be dodgy!

First, could you briefly describe your website and the main goals you are aiming to achieve through making this site?

Firstly a lot of what we set out to do is in the funding application i forwarded you, this still stands and would be what we’d call our goal or ‘wants’ from the project, that of social integration for individuals with mental health issues, development of a supportive community based around art and mental health.

I will say this however, on a personal note, i have schizophrenia and have so far not found on the web a community based around a cutting edge forward thinking website that can provide ‘community’ functions and appease my interests in art & design (as with many individuals with mental health issues, a common interest). There are elements of this on twitter, though twitter can be very dispersive and eclectic and so as is often the case it can be difficult to pin down, or put to good use.

So anyway, like i say on a personal front this site was about creating something i could not find on the web. something like Tumblr, or ffffound but for individuals with mental health issues. The downside of the whole thing however is that while we’ve managed to raise the funds and initially the project seemed to be going really well, it seems we choose the wrong designers to develop and finish the project off. as a user yourself, i’m sure you can see where the ‘holes’ are or where, the site just simply does not live up to expectation. (have thought about saying to the designers in very simple terms, that the site is more of a second hand Ford, where we were needing a Mercedes!)

I am still on the designers backs, but alas i fear it might all be too late. that is we choose the wrong people to partner with in the first place. That aside Fords can still be of some use, and i’m hoping through advertising that a community may still blossom and grow.

Sorry, i don’t think this answers your question, though i hope a personal view point can be of good use. All the formal terms and conditions surrounding the what’s where’s and why’s are in our funding application. Feel free to copy and paste what you like from there.

As my topic directly relates to eating disorders, do you believe that there is sufficient support available for those with mental disorders/eating disorders online?

my knowledge regarding eating disorders is a little sparse __ but when it comes to mental health in general, and in knowing what’s available online, I’ve been around the block a few times.

for me the whole mental health thing online breaks down in two ways; firstly there’s what i’d say was the condition defined type __ the type of sites that exist purely for those who feel there lives are defined by their condition. And by the look of their popularity i’d say there’s quite a few people out there that feel this way … this being an example http://psychcentral.com/ but also where sites have ventured down the social network line then http://www.realmentalhealthsite.com/ being an example.

the second way then (and which is kind of similar to the first way) is the charity based information heavy sites; sites which act as resources, information wells and when from established and reputable charities, have a real purpose. http://www.mind.org.uk/ being an example.

what all of the above though i feel misses is the ‘youth’ __ and by that i don’t just mean young people but also those who really know what their doing online, sharp design savvy folk with established twitter accounts, read the next web and tech crunch and stay a breast of the latest trends and breakthroughs __ now i’m not saying i’m necessarily one of ‘this type’ but i do know there is a difference between say http://www.behance.net/ and http://psychcentral.com/ it needs little explaining.

So, how is MMMETA different to all these different sites?

the whole idea and premise behind mmmeta was (and still is i hope!) to combine mental health with cutting edge technology and art & design. Art & design then being one of those common threads that link many charities in the mental health field and hospitals too. Art & design often unfortunately gets put in the same boat as art therapy, which within this pond holds true in many respects, however i assure you art therapy is not for everyone, and further more why should those with mental health conditions have to be pigeon holed into the therapy relationship just to get the most out of art & design

the technology bit is basically because no one else is succeeding with this at the moment (as far as i know anyway) that is as what i described above; combining mental health with art & design and cutting edge technology (exclusively (because i think tumblr have medical and maybe now even mental health categories? (you may know this better than i?)))

Anyway, whether someone is doing this already or whether it’s been done before, i was kind of hoping mmmeta would just be good!! __ Parisa, how do you find it? did you find that there was too much to read before getting to understand how the thing worked?, or did you just find it intuitive? did you get the whole thing about peoples profiles being displayed above posts before you read it in the introduction?

despite the amount of knowledge you have (or don’t have) on eating disorders in general, do you believe that it is possible for individuals with eating disorders to overcome their eating disorders with the appropriate help and support online? If yes, how do you believe this can happen? If not, what are your reasons for this answer?

in my mind, nothing beats real person with real person talking therapy. real talking therapy in my mind is the best solution to overcoming all mental health problems __ a lot of what being in hospital is, is about this, a lot of consultation and a lot of talking … it of course needs to be in the right time and place for everybody __ but i believe when it all comes together for someone there’s nothing better

the reason mmmeta is called mmmeta is because meta.com was taken (obviously) and so we called it mmmeta.com __ haha __ as i say the real reason why it’s called mmmeta is because in my mind the online world is kind of metaphysical __ a reflection, a metaphor __ and so the play on words for mmmeta reflects this. the definition of ‘meta’ in the dictionary reflecting this.

__ i think the world is changing at a super fast pace __ just yesterday google released new Chromebooks, computers founded on providing super fast online and internet services and not much else __ that is, and in trying to keep ahead of the competition they see that a lot of what we will be doing in the future will be based solely online. __ this says a lot. and as part of this trend then mental health then also has it’s place online.

The problem i feel a lot of people experience these days is that there really are no really safe places locally or communally where people can really be themselves … places where real talking can take place, places where in real life (and not online) people can get together and truly connect. __ and so a lot of people turn to the internet to try and resolve this problem. I think that’s part of the reason sites like tumblr are doing so well at the moment. and so to this end __ and if we are going to see a continuation of this trend in society then i think the internet will play larger and larger a role.

I still hold dear however that real face to face talking beats all the competition!

What sorts of things do you think can be done online to improve the general way of things for individuals with mental illnesses?

there’s a real issue i think about how charities and some sites approach mental illness on the internet. almost pigeon holing people before they’ve even had a chance to say anything __ what i mean is, a site is either a mental health site, or it is not. there seems to be no blurred lines, no real places that reflect what it’s like for someone with a mental illness where it’s not just all about the illness but that it’s also about people in general __ or as in mmmeta’s case art and design … i know a lot of people with mental health problems who do not really want to talk about them straight away, right from the outset — and so somewhere where mental health is part of the conversation (website) but is not the whole story, would make a welcome change, a sideline issue, or enough of a presence to make it feel reassuring but not overwhelming

What are some changes that can be made to the online world to reduce the triggers for individuals with eating disorders?

well the online world in a lot of ways is a bit like the real world on drugs … that is think of anything that might or could happen in real life, stick this situation on speed and you have the internet version! __ i would imagine to this end then, that if people, or parents is some cases, are not careful there are probably some god awful sites people in these situations could visit __ on the flip side of this of course (though again what i was saying about in the previous answer) would be the positive sites / services that are out there

what are some different ways that the internet can be used to combat eating disorders?

I’ve known a couple of people who have ended up in hospital because of anorexia/bulimia __ it’s not a nice place to be … under section in the uk, hospital staff are able to force treatment onto people where they deem it necessary, so in the case of anorexia, force someone to eat. (i should add that sectioning here in the uk can only be done to someone where they present a very real risk to themselves or others) __ which i would further add, i presume (in limited knowledge) that you can section someone here if they are likely to kill themselves because of not eating and force treatment upon them.

what’s all really nasty about all this is the against ones will bit. for your own good, tough love etc. it really hurts a lot of people, and often people don’t forgive those who executed the tough love carried out to save them … it’s a loose loose situation.

As i’m sure your aware because of doing this project, the internet can be a great place to express anger and resentment but also where so find support and love __ so as far as this relates to people with eating disorders i think you have a kind of mixed bag here. It’s a difficult question to answer, though i would probably return to a previous answer to a previous question. face to face talking is the best kind of therapy.

Back from the island.

Hello folks,

I’ve been in the Outer Hebrides enjoying the sights of sheep, peat and sea. At the moment it’s only me posting on here so while I’m away the blog is quiet. I’ve got some updates coming up so please keep your peepers open, one thing to look out for is a winning combination of painting and poetry. So there you go.

For now I will leave you with The Fairy Feller’s Master Stroke by Richard Dadd.

Karen May Sorensen.

Karen May Sorensen is astounding. She is an artist, living with schizoaffective disorder for the past twenty years, and has produced an amazing body of work. I’ve got to say I’m a little bit biased when it comes to Karen’s work as it reminds me of all my favourite art – folk art, outsider art, frenetic, vivid and immediate. I personally love these pieces, especially ‘Monster Couple’, and would love to have some prints for my house!

If I was a shrink I’d probably say that there are certain paintings more than others where you can see Karen’s disorder speaking out from the canvas. Who knows if that is true. It seems that way, in the same way that Louis Wain’s cats became more schizophrenic as his health took a tumble. I read somewhere that Karen kept a record of paintings she did on different medications. The results would be very interesting. I haven’t found that yet but I’m only just getting through her website and blog so hopefully will stumble across it soon.

Karen does a fair bit of autobiographical writing on her website and shares her thoughts on her own life, medication and ‘normals’ (people unaffected by mental disorder) amongst other things. She also writes a blog which she frequently updates so please do have a read. I have lifted a bit of writing from Karen’s website for you to read as she can explain herself and her mind better than I ever could. I cannot stress how much I love this artist.

This I Believe by Karen May Sorensen

“I believe in the power of art. I once worked at an information desk in a world famous art museum. The kind lady who was my boss also happened to be an artist. On some days she wore a pin that peaked my curiosity. It said, “Art Saves Lives”. It seemed an extreme statement. I wondered if it were true.

I was young when I worked in the art museum and I had an enormous amount of enthusiasm. I was, I decided, going to be someone, someday. I certainly did not feel as though my life needed saving, not by art, not by anyone. I liked to write and I hoped that someday I would write a book. I practiced writing, knowing that practice was the best pathway to becoming a good writer. I also went to school. While I was in school I realized that I could not have a job, even a part time job, and go to classes at the same time. My life was filled with too much stress. So I quit my part time job (which I loved quite a bit) to concentrate on school.

At that time I also had a boyfriend who I liked to go dancing with. School was tough, and during final exams I became anxious and depressed. It wanted to be a good student, but it was so very difficult to get the assignments done. Eventually I realized that I could not go to school and have a boyfriend at the same time. Both seemed to take up all my attention and concentration. I thought to myself that I did not like feeling so divided between commitments. My boyfriend never made me feel anxious and depressed, so I decided to drop out of school and keep the boyfriend. I could still write, I went to the library every day to write.

My boyfriend was a nice young man. The one frustration in our relationship was that there were many activities that we could not do together. When he wanted to go dancing, he wanted to travel to other states, to visit the biggest parties. Long hours driving, long hours dancing, these things I found too adventurous for my taste. We would spend half a Saturday together, perhaps go bicycling in the morning, but then I needed a nap and wanted in the afternoon to do only quiet things. He wanted to do activities that filled the whole day, but I quickly sputtered out and lost steam. I was jolly and good company for a couple of hours but then my whole state of mind changed and I became fragile, remote, and unavailable. It seemed to me that my boyfriend had too much energy for me. So we parted ways amicably.

I had gone through a process of whittling down my life, making it more and more slender, until I arrived at a very simple life where the one thing that I would do was every morning go to the library and write. When I got to the library I would write for exactly half an hour. Sometimes, through tremendous effort, I could write for forty-five minutes. Often I had to rewrite the same sentence over and over again. Making a paragraph was a big deal. The rate of writing was very slow. But I was happy with what I produced. After rewriting every sentence many times, and rewriting paragraphs just as often, the words really began to flow. The imagery was special. The voice was unique. I had perhaps five pages of beautifully written writing when I finally gave up on that particular book project.

I tell you a story and some of the choices I made may seem strange. Many people have jobs and go to school at the same time. It is stressful but they handle the stress. Also many people date and take classes at the same time. People juggle the demands of home and work all the time. And if I choose having a boyfriend over the more serious, life building activity of school, it makes me seem frivolous and lazy. But there is a strong hint as to the core of the problem that existed. When I wrote, I could only write for half an hour at a time. And a college usually requires hours of study from their students. I remember one term paper due that turned out to be twenty-eight pages long. I loved school, I loved learning, but the reality was I found the demands that school placed upon me to be torture. I was an excellent student when I was in school. But in order to be excellent I had to endure mental conditions that stretched the boundaries of who I was. All the choices I made were made with the intention of preserving sanity.

There is an explanation for why I forged such a failure strewn path. My brain is not like most people’s. I had a normal brain up to the age of nineteen, and then my brain changed. It weakened, and then it broke. I lost many abilities. I stopped talking and I stared off into space. I had to be hospitalized for two years. The hospital would not release me because I could not stop thinking about killing myself. My brain is diseased. Scientists hypothesize that the chemical balance in it isn’t right. I take medication every day trying to correct the balance in my brain. The type of disease I have is a form of schizophrenia that is called a schizoaffective disorder.

In the twenty years I have lived with schizophrenia my brain has tried, in its own way, to heal. Making art has been very important in that healing process. I feel that when I write, or draw, or paint my brain is involved in something very much like playing a beautiful symphony. When I make art my brain is at its best, functioning in a balanced, coordinated effort, using the highest and most complicated of thought pathways. Creative thought is beautiful thought. Making art is entirely wholesome. When I have failed at doing so much in life, in making art, I have succeeded. And this success is due to the twin facts of perseverance and skill. I have molded through years of practice a skilled schizophrenic brain. In psychiatric jargon I am both low functioning and high functioning. To live so divided, to be both very weak and very strong feels at times odd and not real. Making good art is like watching a very sick woman rise out of bed and dance a jig. You are shocked at what, in her delicate state, she can accomplish. Making art and being mentally ill is like the case of the magical cow. All day long it stands in the field and moos and chews grass. But for one special hour, at the break of dawn when no one is looking, the cow grows arms and writes sonnets. I believe that in the midst of most mental illnesses there are moments of health, and I know for certain that these moments of health are present in the making of art.

I think I finally know the secret of that audacious claim “Art Saves Lives”. I feel that I have a purpose in life, and that purpose is making art. Without a driving purpose I am lost. I must have a reason for getting out of bed in the morning and starting my day. Before I shut my eyes at night I must be able to look back over my day and identify some small accomplishment. I don’t have very much pride, but what scraps of honor I own, all converge on the statement, “I am an artist”. Making art is my past, my present, and my future. How lucky I am that art is like a strong rope, binding me down and tying my soul to life on this earth. Art has saved my life.”

All work copyright of Karen May Sorensen. All images above can be found in Karen’s gallery.

Dave Smurthwaite.

Dave Smurthwaite is an artist, writer, creative and, of course, a mental health service user living in London. He recently sent me a journalistic piece of writing on his time as an inpatient, a sort of ‘tips for the uninitiated’, having been sectioned 4 times, which he found a “harrowing, soul burning experience”. You can find that piece of writing amongst others here.

I took a look at his website and found an Aladdin’s cave of creativity; I want to feature most of his work on this site! So, choosing a few pieces is certainly difficult, and, with his permission, I will show more of his pieces from time to time.

Two of my favourite images in his albums are the sketches above with their loose and energetic mark making. But Dave also makes more graphic-design inspired work, like these gorgeous multimedia collages bursting with shapes, patterns and colours…

Dave also runs a mental health community website, Mmmeta, “a community of creative people who have been affected by mental illness. The site is intended to be a place to share with like minded people, support each other and express ideas and emotions in creative ways. mmmeta. is not excusive, it’s inclusive.”. To find out more about Mmmeta and join the community, click here. Watch the introduction to Mmmeta below.

As well as all this he runs the website for Bath Visual Arts Fringe Festival. Please do have a look at this website as the Bath Fringe Festival is excellent and you will no doubt find out loads of interesting, quirky and impressive happenings. And make sure you visit the Festival this year!

Apropos of nothing, I just love this funny little chihuahua-cheese…

Dave suffers from schizophrenia and you can read his online diary here.
You can buy Dave’s work from his Etsy shop. Or you might just find him selling his work on Bayswater Road in the sunshine…

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Art Therapy Without Borders, Inc.

Art Therapy Without Borders, Inc., is a 501 (c) 3 non-profit incorporation organized exclusively for charitable, educational, and networking purposes to promote, develop, and support international art therapy initiatives and the work of art therapists worldwide.  ATWB was founded in April 2010 to meet the need for an organization dedicated to a global art therapy community; the exchange of information, news, media, and resources; the development of online educational opportunities; and the advancement of collaboration and research. Our core mission is to encourage the use of art in service to others in need through art therapy, art in healthcare, and art as a form of social transformation.

The Art Therapy Alliance and International Art Therapy Organization have formed this umbrella organization to consolidate our programs, but still provide the art therapy community with a vital social network dedicated to education, research, information exchange, and service to others.”

All text and video taken from http://www.atwb.org/.

Start in Manchester.

Start in Manchester is an NHS mental health organisation with a bit of a twist. They are an art in mental health organisation, nationally recognised as a leader in its field, who offer therapeutic services based on the experience of creativity. Through art and gardening courses the team help to “maintain mental wellbeing, develop coping strategies and self-care skills, and regain the confidence to move back into mainstream life.”

Working with people experiencing long-term mental difficulties and distress Start offer a mix of skills to their students (all mental health service users) including visual arts, horticulture and occupational therapy. When service users join Start they usually have no or very little previous experience of art however they find their talents are drawn out through the creative, supportive learning environment. To find out more about Start click here.


The images displayed on this page are a selection from Start’s galleries, including drawing and painting, ceramics and mosaic work. Start not only exhibit their service users’ work but they have also completed a number of commissions which is my favourite thing about the project.